Sean was born on Sunday, August 20 at 11:18 am. Though he was not due until August 2, looking back on it, I should have known that his birthday was imminent. The weekend before, I went on a bit of an organizing frenzy. While the urge to organize, and clean, and make things right for the baby hit really early on, this was different. As we were out running errands to get things ready for the nursery, Bryan could hardly keep up with me as we ran from store to store, department to department. But it didn't occur to me that this was the "burst of energy" that typically precedes labor. After all, I wasn't due for 3 weeks, and everyone kept saying that first babies are usually late. I was sure I had at least three, and probably closer to four weeks before the baby came.
That crazy energy dissipated just as quickly as it appeared, and by the end of the week, I'd had it. By Friday evening, I was in tears, because I just couldn't do it any more. Working full time at that point in my pregnancy was more than I could handle, and Bryan and I started trying to figure out a way for me to cut down to part time until my maternity leave started. It never occurred to me that I might actually just have the baby!
Saturday, July 19 started out as a fairly typical weekend in the Payne household. Bryan and I slept in and enjoyed a leisurely morning before jumping into the "baby prep" activities that had come to fill our days and evenings. Shortly after noon, I noticed I was "leaking." I assumed I was leaking urine, as all the books say that starts happening in the last couple of weeks of pregnancy. I even joked to Bryan that I needed to borrow some of Thea's incontinence meds. It didn't occur to me that it could be amniotic fluid...after all, I wasn't due for another 2 weeks, and I was firmly convinced this baby would be late. So I thought nothing of it, and went about my day. It was just like any other Saturday, other than my odd compulsion to set up the Pack 'n' Play, where the baby would be sleeping when we brought him home. As the day went on, I began to suspect that I was leaking amniotic fluid, but I kept putting the idea out of my head. It was too early. It couldn't be amniotic fluid.
That evening, after spending the day working around the house, preparing for Baby, Bryan and I decided we needed to get out, and figured it was finally time to buy some curtains for our bedroom. So off we went with our Bed, Bath, & Beyond 20% off coupon in hand. But we realized we were starving so we decided to stop for dinner before our little shopping trip. We were leaving Willy's after a dinner of burritos, chips and salsa, a tiny, almost imperceptible trickle became more of a gush. At this point, I was willing to acknowledge that maybe it was amniotic fluid after all.
Not quite sure what was happening or what we should do, I called the OB emergency number while Bryan was filling up the car with gas. Her advice was to go in to labor and delivery to get checked out. It's amazing how calm and collected we were at this point, probably because both of us were still convinced it was a false alarm. We went home and while Bryan put the car seat in and finished packing our partially packed hospital bag, I fed Thea and changed into some dry pants. As Bryan was loading up the car, I saw some of our neighbors outside walking their dogs (she was 35 weeks pregnant at this time), and I handed them a key and said "I think my water broke but I'm not sure, so we're going to the hospital. It's probably a false alarm and we'll be back later tonight, but if not, would you mind letting Thea out later this evening?" They readily agreed, and wished us luck, and off we went.
When we got to the hospital, our check in was quick and easy. All my info was already in the system from
our earlier visit, and within 30 minutes they had me in a triage room. The told me my water broke, and after a quick exam, found that I was 1.5 cm dilated and partially effaced. They admitted me to the hospital around 8:30 pm, and Bryan and I started trying to wrap our heads around the fact that this was really happening. Once we were admitted, the doctors said they were going to induce my labor, because once your water breaks, if labor does not begin within a few hours, both baby and mom are at risk for serious infection. I really wanted to avoid the pitocin if at all possible, so they agreed to give me a few hours to see if labor would begin on its. By 3:30 am, there were still no contractions, and by 4:00 am I was hooked up to the pitocin. The contractions started almost immediately, and as I'd heard from others they were intense! Though still hoping for a natural child birth, I knew it would be much more difficult with the pitocin, and made the decision that if I did need pain relief, I would get an epidural.
By 7:00 am, the contractions were about two minutes apart, and lasting for about 45 seconds. They were really intense, and breathing through them was not working. I was starting to get nauseous, so much so that I made Bryan eat his breakfast in the bathroom because the smell of it was bothering me. The nurse came in and told me I was about 4 cm. I realized that I could not handle several more hours of this type of contraction, and decided it was time for the epidural. I felt the relief almost as soon as it was placed. On the advice of the nurse, Bryan and I both settle din for a nap, as we'd been to excited to get much sleep overnight.
I woke up at 10:00 feeling quite a bit more rested. A few minutes later, the nurse checked my cervix, and told me I was fully dilated and effaced and ready to go! I was shocked! She adjusted my position to allow me to labor down a bit while she called the doctor and started getting things ready to go. Around 10:45 I started pushing. I'd heard lots of stories about how epidurals numb you so much you don't feel enough to really even know when to push or how to go about it. But fortunately, the epidural did just what it was supposed to do for me--it numbed the pain, but still allowed me to feel the pressure of the contractions, so when the time came I could feel that it was time to push, and go with it.
Bryan was wonderful and actively involved in Sean's delivery. Because of the epidural, I was completely numb from the waist down and couldn't move my legs. When it was time to push, the nurse held one leg while Bryan held the other. He coached me through the pushing, and was able to see Sean's head as he was crowning. Around 11:00, the nurse told me I needed to stop pushing and sit out a few contractions. It seems that Sean was almost out, but the doctor wasn't there yet. Around 11:15, the doctor was there and ready to go, and after only a couple pushes, Sean arrived 11:18 am. He weighed 7 lbs 1 oz, and measured 20.5" long. When Sean was born, the umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck. I never would have known this if Bryan hadn't told me the next day. The doctor very calmly unwrapped the cord and, within a few seconds Sean let out a nice healthy scream. I was none the wiser.
After Sean was born, the doctors laid him on my stomach while they wiped him down, and Bryan cut the cord. It was amazing. I was holding my son for the first time! One nurse then wiped Sean down and swaddled him, while another nurse wiped me down and the doctor finished stitching me up. When we were all clean, the handed him to me, and I put him to my breast and fed him for the first time. He was amazing and knew just what to do. With Bryan at my side, I held Sean and fed him, and we both gazed down at him, taking in the moment, and wondering in amazement at our new family.
After Sean had his first meal and Bryan and I had some time to spend together with Sean, Bryan went out to the waiting room to usher in the proud grandparents and uncle. I had tears in my eyes as I joyfully introduced my mom and dad to their new grandson. Everyone took turns holding him and welcoming him to the family. I will never forget how wonderful it was to hold him for the first time, to see Bryan become a father and meet his son, to see the love and pride in my parents eyes as they met their first grandchild. Truly, it was one of the most amazing days of my life!

Welcome to the world, Sean! You are our Beautiful Boy!